Thoughts for an Easter morning

I wrote the following essay in April, 1995 for “Meandering”, a bi-weekly column that I used to write for a farm newspaper, The Farmer’s Friend. This year Easter is late, and there are more signs of spring than usual, but here on our farm, we are just between crocuses and daffodils on nature’s calendar, and temperatures yoyo from the 30’s to 70’s so I still stand by what I wrote almost thirty years ago.


         

   There are places where Easter is celebrated amidst riotous colors, where the grass is a rich shade of green, where flowers bloom—lemony daffodils, rose-hued azaleas, tulips dripping red, orange, purple.

            Here in northeastern Pennsylvania though, you can color Easter in shades of chocolate, from the bare-boned trees and the muddy roads to murky, just-thawed ponds and skittish beige deer.

            The skies you can color changeable at this time of the year. Depending on a whim they can be variations of gray, robin’s egg blue, or lily white. Streak them with a hazy rainbow after a shower; strew them with clouds—cumulus, stratus, cirrus, nimbus. Be sure to make the clouds’ shapes interesting—form them into a goat’s head or a set of angel’s wings.

            From your palette select pastels: amber for the stubble-strewn fields, shades of pink and mauve for the far-off forests—colors that hint of things to come. Touches of apple green should spike out here and there, pale, barely-touched-with-chlorophyll green.

            In other places Easter is heralded with trumpet fanfares and 100-voice choirs echoing alleluias. In the hills and valleys of Pennsylvania the quiet colors are complemented with the muted music of geese honking overhead, with the robins singing their odes to spring, and with  the spring peepers’ joyful fanfare.  The sounds of wind and rain add to the northeastern concerto: whispering, bellowing, shrieking wind along with rain percussing—pattering, drumming, pounding a steady beat.

            Easter temperatures in other places will be in the 70s or 80s, and people might wear sun dresses and short-sleeved shirts as they bask in the sun’s early glow at sunrise services. Easter temperatures here may be in the 20s, and we might wear our winter coats and gloves as we hunt for Easter eggs in 12 inches of snow!

            There are many who prefer to flee south for Easter—to celebrate this holiday where flowers bloom, and skies are always sunny.

            For those of us who stay here, spring is still but a promise—one last snowstorm and a hopeful daffodil away. Never mind what the calendar says, the physical evidence is sometimes mighty slim. For hardy northerners, spring is still something to be hoped for, something to have faith in.

            I believe that our less-than-stellar days seem somehow appropriate at Easter-time. Faith, hope, a promise—isn’t that what Easter is about anyway?

Peace to you, and thank you for reading this!

Praying for Ukraine

I thought I saw a 
light
at the end
 of the tunnel-- 

turns out 
it was just 
a break 
that led 
to another, 
darker
 tunnel.

And, 
don't want to be, 
but
I’m kind of 
mad
at God 
because,

like millions,
 I keep 
praying 
for a miracle—
hasn’t happened
yet.

“Lose yourself in nature
and find peace,” 
said Emerson.

I’m trying, 
Ralph, 
I’m trying. 

Day seven of a random week in February

Early this week, in a fit of creative inspiration, I challenged myself to a daily blog entry for the week. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday went by and I met my challenge. Then Thursday evening my adversary named Self-Doubt stopped by, and I stalled out. So I wrote the following for Friday:

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The hell with the week-long challenge

So this has been fun, but it’s getting stressful, and I’m finding myself peeking at Facebook every five minutes, well, that might be a slight exaggeration, but sometimes when I write this blog, I find myself turning into an insecure person desperate for some likes. It’s getting really bad when you tell your son to like your blog post, so he likes them all even though he hasn’t read any of them. Aiie! I don’t care for that needy, insecure me that crops up sometimes, so I’m going to cut off this challenge today.

I will keep writing. I’m writing a children’s story for my grandchildren and great-niece and a Storyworth memoir. I also have some ideas for future blog posts. They will appear in March or April. Thank you to everyone who has supported me with a “like” or a comment. I do appreciate them. I just don’t want to depend upon them for my peace of mind!

Ciao for now!

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I wrote the preceding as my final/give-up-the-challenge blogpost for the week.

Then I peeked at Facebook one more time… and read an encouraging comment from a friend.

Oh, crap, I thought. I can’t end with that final post now. I have to continue and fulfill my challenge to myself. Then I wrote a post about my husband’s artwork.

Of course, watching the Olympics helped too. How can you not be motivated to persevere when hearing the stories of athletes who have struggled and kept on. Right now I am thinking of the women’s figure skating saga and the aftermath of almost everyone crying: one for joy, the youngest crumpled in anguish, another with mascara-tracks running down her cheeks and her eyes blazing, but the young Gold Medal Champion standing alone, stoic, probably in shock, but calm. Her perseverance and grace and that of Nathan Chen and so many more inspired me.

Perseverance: one of the best stories to come from the Olympic Games.

Finally, I want this last post of the week to remain in your mind as a thank note to every person who has encouraged me by leaving a comment (or, yes, liking a post 😎), or just taking the time to read my posts.

Sometimes we don’t even fully grasp the importance of support and encouragement, how far it can take another person.

Ciao for now. I’ll be back in March.

Day six of a random week in February

Someone came to our house
and admired 
my husband's
wall of
paintings. 

"Huh,"  he said
incredulously,
"so you're 
a farmer
and an artist, 
never heard 
of that!"

Well, there's 
always a first, 
I thought, 
and why 
does it have 
to be either/or?
Isn't and 
a better option? 

A farmer
and
an artist!

I appreciate that you took the time to read this. Thank you!

Day five of a random week in February

You know the old saying, “A picture is worth a thousand words”?

But what about the thousand words?

What is beyond, behind, beside, within this snapshot?

I happened upon this old boat at Cape Vincent, up in the corner of New York State where the Saint Lawrence and Lake Ontario meet. I took this photo during the first summer of the seemingly eternal Pandemic. My husband and I rented a cottage along Lake Ontario, not far from Fort Drum, where my daughter and her family were stationed. During that summer, soldiers and their families living on Fort Drum were not allowed to travel very far from the base. Since our daughter couldn’t come to see us, we went and spent time near her. That’s part of our story.

During our stay, we took a day trip and stopped at The Coal Docks Restaurant along the St Lawrence Seaway, and we ate outside on the patio, which is how I happened to notice this beautiful old weathered boat, pulled up from the water, and lit by the setting sun. So there was another story going on behind the photographer and that was of the scene across the street of a restaurant, and an owner who was trying to stay afloat, to adapt to a Pandemic by providing outside seating, and a lovely waitress, and delicious food, and some moments of normalcy in crazy times.

What you can’t see in the photo is a little mink that kept popping up along the shoreline. I couldn’t capture the mink and the boat at the same time. But he or she was there just out of sight of the photo, and I wonder what was their story? Age? Family? Adventures? Misadventures?

There is also the old boat itself. How many hundreds of stories does it hold? Where? What? Why? Who? How? When? I wish I knew even one of them, but I don’t. Its past, its life, so to speak, is a mystery to me. Maybe that’s why I liked it so much.

What is in this photo then?

It’s a mystery boat with untold hidden stories. In sum, it’s a treasure.

Day four of a random week in February

I'm walking dogs these days,
one through the streets 
of my childhood: 
a Beagle
named Amy
and I 
traipse up 
Maple, 
left down
 Putnam,
around 
Courthouse Square 
with it's 
red and blue lit
 statue, 
in the predawn quiet
 as lights come on
and the papergirl
glides by
 on her bike
no matter the weather,
Amy, her nose to the ground.


And Mattie at home,
my border collie 
friend, 
up the road,
past the barn, 
through the woods, 
off leash,
sitting still
when  trucks go by.
She never tires 
of chasing sticks, 
racing birds, 
running through
the cornfield stubble.

How I love
walking dogs!

Thank you for reading this!

Day three of a random week in February

I was on a walk with my best canine friend last November when I came upon this old milkweed pod, up beyond the fields and just at the front edge of the little piece of woods which the coyotes claim as their own, proclaiming it loudly on clear, moonlit nights.

Anyway I liked the looks of this forlorn little pod, and I took a couple of photos and walked on. After I had passed it, I turned around and saw the milkweed framed by the distant hills and fields and the silvery pink and blue sky, and somehow it took on a glorious aspect. I loved it from that perspective.

Things that are old and past their prime can be the most beautiful of all when looked at from the right perspective, don’t you think?

And am I now talking about an old dried up milkweed pod or is this a metaphor? As I climb the great hill of life, back where I started seems so far away, and I seem to be looking for symbols and greater meanings in everything these days.

Ok, so maybe I’m making too much of it? It’s just a pretty old weed blowing in the wind.

Or not.


Thank you for reading this!

Day two of a random week in February

What’s green and yellow and read all over?

And grey?

And what’s a word known by most everyone that’s not even in the dictionary? (At least it’s not in any brick and mortar dictionary…yet.)

You know it!

My daughter encouraged me to try Wordle a few weeks ago. I looked at it. Fergetabout it! It was confusing. I couldn’t remember what the green meant versus the yellow versus grey. I love words, but I don’t like manipulating letters. I gave it a half-hearted try and gave up.

The first day.

A couple of days passed. Everyone was talking about it and comparing their scores, and I felt like I did in high school when everyone was talking about Charlie’s Angels, and I didn’t even know what they were talking about because we didn’t have a TV.

So one morning I gave Wordle another shot, and I put a little more effort into it this time. . .

and now it’s the first thing I do to warm up my brain every morning, even before my stretching exercises, meditation moments, and oatmeal.

Wordle: I love everything about it.

Except when it makes me anxious when I get to the fourth line and still have no idea.

Wordle 241 4/6

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Thanks for reading this!

Day one of a random week in February

Damn! I have not written anything for my blog since Jan 1st. So I am going to try something different this week: I will challenge myself to a short blog entry every day this week. And double damn, it’s Monday, so I’m already a day behind. But not if we are going with the French calendar, in which the week starts on Monday, so let’s go with that.

Here’s a photo for this Valentine’s Day, a serene place nearby, a view that gave me peace last year as I headed to school with a head full of worries. I hope you receive it in the spirit that I am sending it, as a little gift on this day dedicated to love.

Thank you for reading this!

Watching The Rose Bowl Parade

I'm watching the Rose Bowl Parade
on this 1st of January, 2022,

After a couple of miserable,
harrowing days
when almost everyone who
came to our party
got sick 
with a nasty
stomach bug!
I’m pretty sure
I didn’t  accidentally
poison them; 
none-the-less…

“Dream, Believe, Achieve”
is the theme this year
of The Rose Bowl
Parade,

and
30 years and an hour ago
I was giving birth
to a lovely baby
who turned into 
a wonderful man—
husband, father,
soldier, son, 
and always a farmer
at heart.

Where did the years go?

Back to the parade

First LeAnn Rimes
belted out her song,
“Throw My Arms Around The World”, 
and The Power of Dreams float
just floated by.

Gotta love those sentiments!

I’m seeing some of my favorite things-
horses, flowers, and marching bands.

Usually I’m too busy
to sit and watch the parade, 
cooking and cleaning
and other have-to’s
that really aren’t.

So this year instead
I’m sitting quietly
watching,
just enjoying
and reflecting—

hopeful in this moment.

Peace to you in 2022!